Sunday, June 08, 2008

i suddenly feel so lost, dun really know what i want in my life. perhaps i have been walking too fast for my past one year. i realised i didnt really slow down and take a look at my surrounding. fio is right. i should really take a good break from what i am doing now. if not, i might just derive a solution from my impulsiveness. argh.... i wont denied that that is the main reason for my depression.... so sad that i might not really get what i wan by the end of the year... even the horoscope reading was accurate.

'Diana,Perhaps it would be best for you to postpone all important business until you're back in your right mind. Try to come up with new ways of earning extra cash. Use your heightened creativity and bountiful energy to increase your income. Romantic opportunities will be plentiful if you get out and meet new people. '

was chatting with fio just now on the phone. '所以人说到底都是奸的!' that's was so right. i am one too! whenever i noe it is impossible, i just wan it... i am willing to do everything though i noe i will just get heartache in the end. arent people are just silly? sometimes it just make me wonder if i really fell into that hole or i want it cause is impossible. but i guess i really fell into that endless trap... i will be happy just being with you....

determination is all i need... i wanna be a new me...

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