Sunday, May 11, 2008

always have been so lazy to blog... dunno why today just feel like blogging. perhaps nothing to do, perhaps i m moody... perhaps perhaps perhaps....

well, time really flies. it is now the second week of may 08. i just realised that i graduated a year ago and was no longer a fresh grad. i am going to be 21! oh gosh... feel so old. its so scary when u didnt really remember what u had achieved for the past 21 years. well, i had already attended three 21st birthday parties- alina, zheng long and alvin. haha half year down the road, it will be my turn =)

finally hit my first year with the current firm. gosh, 1st year! hehe, i am pretty happy about it. it's the achievement u felt, especially it wasnt a smooth road to reach where you are right now. well, i dont mean that i am holding any post right now. just felt that at least i am much more confidence doing my work.

gotta know few good friends in my firm. one by one had left. and now, it only left with the two of us- the two ladies who need someone to take care of. oops, sounded like we really need protection. haha. i gonna miss u all so so much! even though we only know each other for a year. i never expect that we will be good friends. that's the reason why i really treasure our friendships! there wont be anymore night mahjong, supper and movie anymore =( i am so gonna miss that period of time. the fun we had. how abusive we are to one another (i had named those blue blacks after your name). the crazy ideas that we had done even when we were tired. how noisy we were, disturbing people from sleeping. hahaha. such such nice memories. all in my com, my memory, my phone. we must meet up often k? i know its pretty difficult. let's try.

i am so gonna get used of being alone again. its like half a year being with u!

someone for me to look forward seeing on the same train
someone for me to look forward to go home
someone for me to look forward to bully, knowing that he wont bully me back
someone for me to treat as a maid
someone for me to disturb when i am bored
someone for me to grumble to him, knowing that he will never harm me

oh no, there wont be that someone anymore!!!! i am going so emo again!

well, i have to be strong again. and i am pretty sure i can do it. jia you for myself!

there is hardly any more chance for me to get to know you more. it's time for me to wake up from the reality. and i just realised that the feeling is no longer controllable by me.

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