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Sunday, April 17, 2005

today is another boring day for me... woke up at about 1 pluz. coz ytd nite shi mian ma... haiz. dun feel good today lor. about the same as ytd nite but onli a bit better. sorry huixian, cant be happy because of u online. i dun like to fake happy. juz now watched the NKF show. got one guy 18 yrs old then need dialysis le. i feel myself so fortunate lor. at least i can enjoy myself. but the guy cant... need to go thru so much suffering. so i told hx, we must take good care of ourselves if we dun wan to go thru it. bernard smsed me and asked if i free to do CCGC duty. he asked if i got any special request to do with who or not. hahaha. got, i wan do with hx. coz we need to video ma... juz now talked to huiying on phone. haiz if u wana give up, is not easy de lor. wat u can do now is to stop urself from liking him more and more. u already said urself... liking him more will onli cause u to have more heart ache. as ur friend, i dun wish to c u hurt. like huixian said "since u say u wana give up, u muz have the determination." that time got A lor... i still cry over somemore. but now, i already forget about that matter. if i can forget about A, i think this one i can also forget lor. u can do it de... time will prove everything. trust me...

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