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Friday, December 17, 2004

first time celebrating my birthday in sch. and is also the first time the most hurtful birthday i ever got. firstly thank you DBF 1A 22 for helping me celebrate my birthday. thanz geksan, jocelyn, liling, sarah, daniel, jeannie, lijun, carolyn and angel for buying me a birthday cake. thanz ppl for buying me presents. im happy for this mini celebration. received alot of birthday wishes from my friends. quite surprised say hee and freddy still rmb my birthday. haha. went to the clubroom juz now. daniel and penny was there too. take pics and play around. sms Miss A asked her wat happened to her. cause she wasnt like her normal self lor. sms awhile then she called me. our conversation is somewat like that.
me: "r u still alright? wat happened? did i make u upset?"
miss A: " m i a friend to u?"
me:" of coz u r. or else i wont ask u wat happened le. i care for u so i ask u"
miss A: " i treat my friends good but they r actually not as nice as they were."
then she asked me pass to huixian. then hx heard liao was like so shocked then so upset. i still can rmb her expression at that time. then the phone was passed back to me. she told me about wat i did... i really dunno. haiz blame myself for being so insensitive. i was also very shocked lor. and its so hurtful to hear all this from her. pass the phone back to hx le. i really cant control le. cry inside the club room. sorry daniel and penny if i scared both of u. went back to SB to meet gek san they all. was surprised they bought me a cake. at the lift there, i was like thinking about it again. then eyes watery. jocelyn asked me wat happened then i say nothing. she gave me a hug. thanz for that hug or else i think i be crying at that time le. thanks for u and geksan concern. in the class, Miss A called me. but i m having tutorial and my hp flat liao. our tutor ended our CD late. haiz then let huixian keep waiting there. sorry. cut the birthday cake and share among us. is nice lor. back home, my sis and bro bought me a cake too. "if u dun wana let me noe, dun talk about it infront of me...." and other sentences she said now keep flashing in my mind... i m really sorry for hurting u. i really dun mean it... haiz feel like crying again... my most hurtful birthday. one of my birthday wish is i hope we can get back wat we were initially. u really important to me... :'(

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